|Posted by Anna H. on February 21, 2014 at 1:55 AM|
How's it going my gumdrops? I don't know about you all but I've mostly had a rough time, since Valentine's Day. It wasn't until yesterday (Thursday), that I noticed some more patterns about myself and some of my other friends on/offline. When I talk to some of my friends in real life and cyber space, it seems as if some have been wanting to copycat parts of my life.
A fews years ago, which was shortly after my high school reunion (there I go again about those people), I told some former high school friends/classmates, that I hosted my own radio show and was a DJ in college. The first question some asked was "Does it pay well?" I replied, "Not always. People, who want to host their own radio shows and be DJ's REALLY have to love their jobs. Not everybody is guarenteed to make the same amount of money as Howard Stern, if not more. When I DJ'ed, it was considered 'Voluntary Work' even though we had to scan lyrics for censorship. If the songs weren't pre-censored, we had to censor them live and create our own music playlists for our shows. This was for those of us, who were playing music. Then, there were those few, who used their airtime to debate over politics and sports. They prepared their binders of notes for their sports and political discussions." This was only a summary of what I explained to some of these former high school friends/classmates. Next, my 1 drunken, opportunisitc classmate, who's as much of a village idiot as Peter Griffin said, "I wanna be a DJ and have my own show someday." Considering how much of a careless, rude, and dismissive drunk he is, his radio show wouldn't last very long. He would need to be really committed, dedicated, punctual, and have a passion for having it. That drunken cretin would most likely arrive to his own radio show 3 hours late (like he did at our reunion). By that time, his show would've been over because it's a requirement for him to go get drunk off his ass at some local dive bar. LOL!
Meanwhile, there seems to be a few other people I've noticed recently, who suddenly want to have their own websites. This is just because I mentioned, that I recently created my own. I don't know whether or not to be flattered for accidentally creating a trend among my group of friends, or to be aggravated. Don't get me wrong. I will support these people if they genuinely want to create their own websites for great reasons. When I say this, I mean creating their own websites for entertainment, writing, photography, sales, good causes, etc. If they only want to create their own websites just for self-admiration and pretentiousness, they're wasting everybody's (including their own) time.
I spend about 8-10 hours working on my website, It's Not All Gumdrops & Unicorns. I never imagined that I could or would build my own website. I didn't earn my BA in Graphic Design or Website Development, and I'm not always the most tech savvy person. I researched online and watched YouTube tutorials about how to create my website. The tutorials make web development appear easy compared to really having the hands on experience in building websites. With the amount of time and energy I put into my website every night and morning, I have a much better appreciation for website developers. I understand why they make thousands of dollars creating websites for people. It takes time, energy, patience, dedication, committment, and usually money to build websites and to keep them running. I don't pay to keep It's Not All Gumdrops & Unicorns running. I maintain it all by myself and for myself, in order to have writing exposure. Hopefully, someone significant will discover It's Not All Gumdrops & Unicorns and will take interest in it. I didn't create it only to say, "I have my own website!" Most articles I read say writers should have their own websites to act as their resume/business cards. My biggest problem is not generating enough traffic.
This is where my current supporters and lack there of come into the equation. I've noticed over the last 1/2 year, most of my Blogsterian "friends" on Blogster stopped visiting my Blogster page. This was after my uncle fired me from his company (all thanks to his lying, backstabbing, shrew). As soon as I mentioned I was creating my own website, that's when "friends" really started to show their true colors. My friends in real life and cyber space (especially on Blogster) either declined, or said "I'll think about it." "I'll think about it" mostly translated to "No, I don't want to support your site." I'm willing to bet had I been any other "friend" of theirs or someone else, they would've been extremely supportive. Some refuse to suppport It's Not All Gumdrops & Unicorns because of jealousy and doubt of my site having the potential to be successful. Even some of my other friends, who do try supporting it, have been hiding their doubts only to spare my feelings. It's infuriating.
Then, there are those few, who have to nitpick every little thing about It's Not All Gumdrops & Unicorns from the "bright" font color to whatever their problem is that second. I have no problem whatsoever taking constructive criticism and suggestions from other people. However, it feels as if I'm spending way too much time trying to please people, who don't care about my site and what I post on it. If I really wanted to, I could easily strip my site and forget about it but I'm not. I've spent way too much of my time and energy working on this site, only to delete it for highly unsupportive people. I appreciate those very few friends/subscribers, who genuinely have faith in It's Not All Gumdrops & Unicorns. I'm done trying to people please those, who refuse to support me or my website. I refuse to keep tying myself in knots and bending over backwards for useless nitpickers, who don't matter. They can kiss the fattest part of my Rainbow Sherbert colored ass and like it for all I care.
Very few friends have brightened my mood at the end of this week. Someone from Vivaldi.net joined my website yesterday morning. A few more friends from Writer's Cafe and Horror-Punks have joined It's Not All Gumdrops & Unicorns within these last 2 months. Also, there are a few more Xangan friends/subscribers from last year, who really like the layout of my website. They feel that I should have more viewers on it. It's comforting to know, that some of these other few, have wished my website well and want to see it succeed. God knows I can't say that for everybody.
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