|Posted by Anna H. on May 9, 2015 at 1:05 AM|
How's it going my gumdrops? In case you didn't check out the latest blogs I have posted within the last 24 hours or less, you may want to give them a read and a watch. Yesterday morning, I posted a blog rant on JournalHome.com regarding politics on entertainment sites.
I just finished posting a cute and funny blog on It's Not All Gumdrops & Unicorns.
You can check out those 2 blogs later, if you haven't already. Moving along, it's Song Saturday. We all know, that tomorrow is Mother's Day.
About 2 days ago, I had another scare. My mother said she had to go back to the hospital because she was having side effects from her most recent medications. I didn't go with her, but my grandmother did. They already needed to run errands.
You're probably wondering, "Why didn't you go with them? You said your mother has seizures."
My mother functions like your average person on a daily basis. Normally, she has a seizure(s) every March or April. Her seizures are usually days or weeks before her birthday. I don't know why that is, but I have been keeping a track of my mother's seizures these last 5 years.
As for why I didn't go, my mother LIVES at the stores. I don't always have the energy to walk around the stores for 3 hours shopping, when I have my own health problems to handle. Also, after being the front seat passenger to 2 car accidents 2 summers ago, I'm constantly on edge, whenever I'm in a car. I already have a phobia of driving and have motion sickness from riding as a passenger.
After having a premonition, that came to me in a dream and literally being in a 2nd car accident 2 days later 2 summers ago, it has really shaken me up. There are times I feel like I'm about to have a panic attack. I have been in car accidents and witnessed them. Some accidents have actually happened in front of our house.
In fact, my youngest aunt is always in car accidents because other drivers keep hitting her. She was just in another car accident the day after my mother's birthday 12 days ago. On Thursday, my uncle came to our house to drop off my mother's and youngest aunt's birthday cards. That reminds me, his birthday is tomorrow and I forgot to buy him something.
As I was saying, my uncle came and dropped off their birthday cards. Then, he told me that there was a car accident down the street from us. My uncle was wondering, if my youngest aunt was in another car accident. I let him know, that it was too early for her to be coming home from work. Therefore, I knew it wasn't her.
However, I was already worried, before my uncle came to the house because A VOICE alerted me about a car accident.
When he told me there was a car accident down the street from us, I asked him for a description of the car. My uncle said he couldn't see the car, which led to me calling my grandmother's cell phone. Luckily, she answered her phone. She and my mother were already at the hospital. After I hung up my cell phone, I burst into tears.
I have been through so much distress and anxiety from late March all throughout April until now, that I can't always think straight. My insomnia has gotten worse too, since my mother's last seizure from several weeks ago. It has really been hellacious.
We all have times where we are angry at our parents about something in our lives. There comes a time for some of us, that we need to set our anger and resentment aside, when our parents have failing health. I have done so many times throughout the last 9 years with my own mother. Most children are fortunate enough to not have to catch their own parents from collapsing on the floor, if not witness them already unconscious on the floor. It can be a very traumatic experience.
With that being said, I thought about sharing 1 of my mother's favorite songs, that she loves to listen, when we're in the car together. I have heard this song, since the time my mother used to drive me to 1 of my many elementary schools, when I was growing up in the 1990's. It's a song by Queensryche called, "Silent Lucidity." It's off the band's Empire album.
Sometimes I feel old listening to "Silent Lucidity" because I've heard this song for the last 25 years on Rock stations. Yes, it is THAT old, but I'm still older. LOL! Anyway, here is Queensryche's "Silent Lucidity" for today's Song Saturday.
Queensryche "Silent Lucidity" Empire (1990)
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