|Posted by Anna H. on December 31, 2015 at 2:25 AM|
How's it going my gumdrops? Today is the end of 2015 and the last blog of the year. Is anybody excited about it? Have any resolutions for the new year? As of this moment, I would like for 2016 to be a better year for me. However, chances are highly unlikely.
I know that I shouldn't be so pessimistic before the new year begins, but it is difficult. Something I have noticed earlier this year is that years with odd numbers have been extremely difficult for me to cope with. 2011, 2013, and 2015 are 3 only examples. There's no telling what 2016 will be like for me.
2016 will officially make it 10 years, since I graduated from Carthage College, battled a severe bleeding disorder, went on dating retirement, struggled to find a permanent job, and other adversities. When I was a teenager, I already had my life planned out. I wanted to become a Japanese Consecutive Translator and an author. Being married with children by 25 and becoming a DJ were other goals I had.
Within these last 10 years or so, I was able to graduate with a BA in Asian Studies and a Creative Writing Minor, have my chapbook bound at Carthage College, became a DJ at UW-Parkside, started at least several blogs, and created my own website. Yes, you all may be saying to yourselves, that I have accomplished quite a bit within these last 10 years. At the same time, I was forced to make a few sacrifices, that were out of my control.
Basically, I gained some and lost some. That's just a regular part of life. So much has happened to me as well as with the rest of my family over this last decade. Looking back, you could say that I had "big dreams" or was somewhat naive about what the future would hold for me. Then again, we all don't know what the future holds for either of us.
Now that I'm going into my mid-30's, I think I am destined to be eternally single and I am alright with it. As much as I would love to have a family of my own, I cannot see myself being married to anyone. The times have changed and so have people.
Relationships can be a burden, which is why so many married couples continue to get divorced. Although, most people today only get married to prove a point rather than getting married for love. Who has time for that pointless bullshit?
You may be asking yourselves, "What does this have to do with the new year?"
This is me reflecting on my last 10 years. So far, I do NOT have any major resolutions for 2016. I'm forced to play 2016 by ear. Honestly, I would really love to take a break from the Internet.
The Internet is extremely time consuming and draining to my physical and emotional health. I hate the fact, that we as a society are enslaved to technological gadgets, in order to do the smallest tasks. I miss the times, when we did NOT always need to be using the Internet to apply for jobs, watch TV shows, movies, listen to music, talk to friends, social network, you name it.
I do NOT have any major resolutions. Meanwhile, I do want to allocate more time for myself offline, in order to be more productive. Continuously having to deal with toxic people, much less staring at them every morning and night is exasperating. I need to be more productive with my time and energy.
Juggling social media sites has also caused me to spread myself too thin and I really need to get back to writing. My most recent short story has been backburned on and off for the last 3 years because of blogging, working another job, being too tired to write it, and procrastinating.
In case you haven't visited my Horror page within the last 1/2 year, you should give it a read. I added some extra samples of my recent short stories. ONLY members of It's Not All Gumdrops & Unicorns can view the Horror page. Anyway, I believe this about covers everything I need to say, for now.
I wish all my gumdrops a happy new year! Happy 2016!
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